God is in Control

God’s dominion over my life is hard to put into words.  As I try, there are words going thru my head like; masterly, orchestrate, dominion, life, direction, surrender, hope, love, sovereign, trustworthy, ruler, grace, and abundant.

The long road I went down as an addict led me to complete destruction and despair.  I came to the end of that road at the hands of an abusive boyfriend.  There wasn’t a day that went by, when all was said and done, that I didn’t hear the Holy Spirit gently urging me to turn from my sins.  See, I knew God from an early age.  I was His and He wasn’t letting go of His control over my life.  Even though He allowed me to make so many bad choices, He masterly orchestrated the events in my life to draw me close to Him.  At the time I didn’t realize it.  All I knew was I couldn’t stay where I was or I would die.  Looking back I can see the dominion of God over my life.  He didn’t force me, but He knew my heart and what it would take for me to turn in a different direction.  Months prior to the final event, I called Miracle Hill’s Renewal Center and requested an application and was told there was a 3 month waiting list.  So I filled out the application and waited.

On the very day of my hopeless desperation with my will being broken, the wait had come to an end.  A bed at Renewal opened up for me.  My heart had been assaulted far too long and I was ready to surrender.  I was like Cinderella at the ball, being romanced by God.  He had invited me to the Grand Event of LIFE and I finally rose to the occasion.  Hope was found that day at Miracle Hill’s Renewal Center and the healing began.  Going from such a dark and gloomy lifestyle, to being immersed in Christ’s love by the staff at Renewal, was and still is, a treasure in my heart.

Although I may still fall and the world battles for my heart, the war has already been won.  My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ will be right there to catch me, pick me up and place my feet on solid ground.  I will gladly surrender to His rule because He is sovereign and trustworthy.  His grace and mercy is abundant and I am so thankful to Him for His patience in directing me to Renewal.

1 Timothy 1:15-16  by the Apostle Paul, best describes me.  “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.  But for that very reason I was shown mercy, so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.”